This about how old our baby would be if things had been different.
The night we came back from the hospital we curled up on the bed and cried for the loss. The ex-husband watched cartoons on television. This was his form of coping, apparently he did get upset when talking about it to a friend later on. We’ve often wondered about his psychology though.
Addition by one of us who is a little more charitable and honest about the ex-husband.