What a day. Sitting at work shaking like a leaf. My hands won’t stop, even when typing or trying to drink something warm to try and soothe. We’ve been sick with the flu, but we didn’t have the shakes then, just today. I know the shaking is due to emotions, but it’s such a weird experience – knowing that the body is shaking due to emotions, but not actually feeling those emotions.
I don’t experience the emotions and I’m not sure what has triggered this, but it started last night when there was a sudden feeling of being lost and empty. Considering we didn’t go anywhere or see anyone yesterday, I’m not sure what’s brought this on. Maybe talking to the mother on the phone? Maybe watching mindless DVDs? There was a draft done last night about a secret fear we have, maybe that’s caused it? I try to look at what’s happening internally and all I see is a swirling mess. Why can’t the answers ever be obvious and simple?
When you look at the injustices people are experiencing all over the world, it’s so pathetic to be sitting in an office shaking like a leaf for no identifiable reason.