Inability to concentrate is listed as one of the outcomes of being a survivor of abuse. What they don’t tell you, is what the impact that can have. Six years ago I was a high achiever. I worked full-time, was married and studying part-time at the post-graduate level. Today, it has taken me 5 hours (on and off) to write these four sentences.
Today, that is all I am capable of. At times I hate that fact. At times I accept it for what it is… a stage in my healing.
When words fail me, I often turn to images to try to explain what’s happening. The image below reminds me of how so many survivors function in this world… if you look quickly, the tree looks “normal”. It has branches which reach to the sky, a trunk for support and roots that appear to go deep into the ground. But, if you look more closely, you see that the branches don’t flow smoothly. Some pieces seem to be swapped around or turned upside down. Some pieces are missing. You’re not even sure whether this is one tree, or lots of different trees stitched together.
Yet, look quickly… and the tree looks intact and strong, doesn’t it?